YOU GUYS! I’m getting MARRIED! This is intense. As intense as a double rainbow. Or more.
I just realized that I haven’t blogged since before New Years. Hopefully you’re my Facebook friend, otherwise I apologize for the drastic lack of communication. A lot has been going on. Basically, I work like crazy all week, sleep all weekend/hang out with Tim all weekend (depending on the weekend), and then do it all over again on Monday. It’s ridiculous.
But, I chose my word for this year and it is: Arise. More on that later…
The rest of this post is going to be somewhat mushy. Please be forewarned 🙂
Also, I got a freaking beautiful diamond RING from the man of my dreams. Oh. My. Lanta. I’ve been engaged for over a month now and in exactly 151 days I am going to be MARRIED to the love of my life. Pretty much being engaged is awesome/stressful. Awesome because I love staring at my ring ALL THE LIVELONG DAY. Stressful because I have to figure out how to coordinate 8 bridesmaids into matching dresses. Just kidding, wedding planning is actually fun (most of the time).
The biggest thing on my mind these days is figuring out how the heck do I join my entire life to another person and oh my gosh, I have to live with a BOY in 151 days! For the rest. Of. My. Life. But seriously, how scary is this? It hit me tonight (as I watched The Bachelor, please don’t judge me) just what it means to get engaged and then married. Seriously…No matter what, I’m committing to loving this one guy and working it out no matter how crazy frustrated he makes me and no matter how selfish I feel. He is it. I’m still wrapping my mind around this.
What does it really mean to commit to loving someone until death do you part? I know myself and my flaws and I know Tim, but like how much can you really KNOW someone until you’ve spent a whole lifetime with them? I have friends who have been in my life for over 2 decades and we are still getting to know each other. My parents have been there since day 1 and we still don’t know each other fully. We never will. And yet, I can look at this man with this deep certainty and peace in my heart and know that God brought our paths together. We have been on this collision course for years. God has been knitting our hearts together for so long and now it is clear to us as well – this is the one for me.
Every day I am learning more and more how to see and love someone else the way God sees them. It’s a crazy thing, this love.
I realize this is a super mushy post. I’ll add some spoilers up at the top for y’all. But really, I am just so grateful that the Lord has led us to this place. So thankful that this is my man. And so excited to live life alongside him! What a crazy journey this has been. And it is only just beginning…my man is slightly crazy himself 🙂